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[it's not that Rin doesn't think parents are important. if anything, he knows exactly what it's like, to want the approval of a parent so much, even if just in spirit, that he'd give up anything (friends, fun, his home, his life)]
[so it follows that he's had more than one tearful conversation with his mother regarding the subject: would dad want me doing this? would he approve of the choices I've made? what did dad want me to be?]
[as expected of a Matsuoka, her answer was fairly straightforward, as is Rin's to Makoto]
Does it make you happy?
[so it follows that he's had more than one tearful conversation with his mother regarding the subject: would dad want me doing this? would he approve of the choices I've made? what did dad want me to be?]
[as expected of a Matsuoka, her answer was fairly straightforward, as is Rin's to Makoto]
Does it make you happy?
[back to his electric piano, makoto dusts off the top where the buttons are. it's not that he has to consider the answer, but admitting to himself that it makes him happy makes him think that he's got to go along with it--to pursue that dream.]
[instead of answering, he begins playing again.]
[he's quiet throughout the song until the very end, and he speaks to the piano when he's done]
This one's yours. You're passionate about important things, confident, and you never lose sight of what you want even if you make mistakes along the way. You always go forward. I wanted to capture that bright energy in you.
[makoto starts playing from this point again, until the end. so rin can hear what he means. find himself in the song, the way makoto thinks he sees rin in it.]
... It makes me happy to do this.
[together, with the song's end]
[instead of answering, he begins playing again.]
[he's quiet throughout the song until the very end, and he speaks to the piano when he's done]
This one's yours. You're passionate about important things, confident, and you never lose sight of what you want even if you make mistakes along the way. You always go forward. I wanted to capture that bright energy in you.
[makoto starts playing from this point again, until the end. so rin can hear what he means. find himself in the song, the way makoto thinks he sees rin in it.]
... It makes me happy to do this.
[together, with the song's end]
)
[if it's bright energy Makoto sees in Rin, he'll see it fairly brimming back up from where Rin just tried to dampen it; the tide swells higher in Rin as the notes spiral up and around and always forward, like chasing something through a windstorm]
[it's beautiful, it's for him, and he loves it. but it's Makoto that needs his own music the most -- and as much as Rin wants to clap and cheer, and let the atmosphere of the room settle somewhere warm and comfortable, Makoto's got him pegged. he never loses sight of what he wants, and he moves ahead, always, ever forward]
[the last of those notes fade, and Rin's reaching out again, hand resting on the piano, not quite touching Makoto's still fingers]
Isn't that what parents want most, in the end?
[not all parents, maybe, but parents that love their kids -- and as strict as the Tachibanas have been, as much responsibility as they've loaded on their only child, Rin doesn't see a lack of love in this household. if anything, maybe too much of it, in both directions (and Rin can understand that, too)]
For you to be happy.
[a pause, and then:]
If I ask you write me another song, you'll keep composing, won't you?
[it's beautiful, it's for him, and he loves it. but it's Makoto that needs his own music the most -- and as much as Rin wants to clap and cheer, and let the atmosphere of the room settle somewhere warm and comfortable, Makoto's got him pegged. he never loses sight of what he wants, and he moves ahead, always, ever forward]
[the last of those notes fade, and Rin's reaching out again, hand resting on the piano, not quite touching Makoto's still fingers]
Isn't that what parents want most, in the end?
[not all parents, maybe, but parents that love their kids -- and as strict as the Tachibanas have been, as much responsibility as they've loaded on their only child, Rin doesn't see a lack of love in this household. if anything, maybe too much of it, in both directions (and Rin can understand that, too)]
For you to be happy.
[a pause, and then:]
If I ask you write me another song, you'll keep composing, won't you?
[Makoto may not do it for himself, but Rin's never known him to turn down an earnest request from a friend]
[Rin suddenly smiles, all bright and sharp like summer sun, and grabs up Makoto's hand again -- this time by the wrist, tugging, tugging]
I liked it a lot, so I want another, alright?
[Rin suddenly smiles, all bright and sharp like summer sun, and grabs up Makoto's hand again -- this time by the wrist, tugging, tugging]
I liked it a lot, so I want another, alright?
[his cousin has called it out before; the problem here is not that there's a lack of love in makoto's family, but rather miscommunication. makoto isn't particularly well-known for knowing how to express himself in a direct, straight-forward way. in the same way, he learnt that from someone, and his parents are the models he followed growing up.]
[makoto smiles at rin]
How many songs do you want, enough for an album?
[he snorts, feeling better--feeling lighter, his chest warm, with the tug to his wrist. but in turn, he puts his hands on rin's shoulders and makes the other sit back down again on the bed]
Hold on, listen to this one. I've been working on it for a while too.
[returning to the piano, makoto plays another, having found his confidence in playing.]
[makoto smiles at rin]
How many songs do you want, enough for an album?
[he snorts, feeling better--feeling lighter, his chest warm, with the tug to his wrist. but in turn, he puts his hands on rin's shoulders and makes the other sit back down again on the bed]
Hold on, listen to this one. I've been working on it for a while too.
[returning to the piano, makoto plays another, having found his confidence in playing.]
[at that, Rin laughs, noisy and resounding as the previous notes]
Now you're just looking for compliments, oi... I definitely want vocals on my album, with a voice like that! [and although they typically speak in Japanese with each other, Rin cuts into abrupt English, to declare] I want the total package! [and back to Japanese] Got it, got it? So do your best, maestro.
[he leans back on his elbows on the bed, nodding as though he's said something profound. he hasn't, but confidence looks good on Makoto, and makes him feel lighter, too -- younger, stupider, sillier]
[it's energizing, to hear the harmony of someone's dreams]
Oi, what'd you stop for?
Now you're just looking for compliments, oi... I definitely want vocals on my album, with a voice like that! [and although they typically speak in Japanese with each other, Rin cuts into abrupt English, to declare] I want the total package! [and back to Japanese] Got it, got it? So do your best, maestro.
[he leans back on his elbows on the bed, nodding as though he's said something profound. he hasn't, but confidence looks good on Makoto, and makes him feel lighter, too -- younger, stupider, sillier]
[it's energizing, to hear the harmony of someone's dreams]
Oi, what'd you stop for?
Edited 2017-05-08 03:18 (UTC)
[makoto smiles wide]
Got it.
[and nods, taking rin seriously, and picking up again from where he stopped before. he's quiet and offers no commentary, so that rin can enjoy the song since he seems to like it a lot.]
[it's only when it reaches the end, that he wonders, determination in his voice despite the shyness in his body language]
...maybe I should use my YouTube channel to upload content after all?
Got it.
[and nods, taking rin seriously, and picking up again from where he stopped before. he's quiet and offers no commentary, so that rin can enjoy the song since he seems to like it a lot.]
[it's only when it reaches the end, that he wonders, determination in his voice despite the shyness in his body language]
...maybe I should use my YouTube channel to upload content after all?
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